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Nothing in me belongs to me anymore

I’ve turned into a reflection of yourself

I mirror your wins and losses

I exist to project you

I’ve incorporated your fears and concerns into my essence

I’ve abandoned all my dreams to make space for yours

It’s funny how I thought there was enough space for both of us

But you weigh more

You react more

Your intense emotions and never-dull life don’t have time for my normality

My body is an extension of yours

You prove it to me everytime you use it to relieve yours

Your satisfaction equals my destruction

And I’m just a hole that makes you whole

If you cut me I bleed your DNA

You inserted your genes into me

Not only that

You replaced anything mine with everything yours

You made it

You isolated me into your perspective

Mine cannot be adopted anymore

I don’t even have connections to my previous life

I am seperated from my past

And married to your future

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LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP WITH BEAUTY

I’ve always admired beauty

Not their beauty though

My kind of beauty

The beauty that does not hurt

The beauty that does not decay

The beauty that only grows

With no end goal

The beauty that exists even after its expiration date

Beauty should not open doors

It should not differentiate winners from losers

Beauty should not be based on luck

No one is born beautiful

But everyone should strive to become

Not artificially

But naturally

You embrace your beauty when you accept that no one can steal it from you

Even if they try to

Beauty is your uniqueness

Beauty means that you hold a fixed number of features that cannot be found anywhere in the universe in the same way they are found combined in you

And changing your own combination means trying to imitate and steal features belonging to others

No feature should be better than others

No beauty should be compared to others

Comparison should be replaced with admiration

The same way we admire two beautiful horses

We do not think to compare and award them hierarchically

We simply stare in awe

The same way we should be with our selves

Stunned

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THE CURSE OF BEING CAPABLE

I never felt capable

But others had it worse

So I should feel happy thanks to my capability

I’ve always felt incapable

I know that if others were in my shoes, they would do everything differently

They would take care of me

My today and my tomorrow

They would treat my past with kindness

Like a child that accidentally spilled his drink

They would open doors to people who care

And show the exit to people who harm

I don’t care about doors

I’ve blocked the entrance as well as the exit

I have put my self under the door frame

Standing near the threshold

Looking back and forth

I’m the one that harms me

But sometimes I reward me just to confuse me

I don’t like being my enemy

That way I will be too easy to blame

I shouldn’t take the blame all by my self

There has to be others that did their part too

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MY MUSEUM OF REMORSE

I put my earphones on

I need to block my audio receptors from taking up words from the environment

Cause every word feels personal

It comes and fucks up my cognition

Even if it wasn’t destined for me

I take it and groom it

I change it so it can fit

I swallow it and its meaning

I interpret it hardly until it is absorbed by my brain

From now on it’s mine

The newest addition to my museum of remorse

Here you can find exhibits that felt too personal

So I had to confiscate them

For the sake of you all

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Be responsible!

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me at this point of the year, reacting to any bad news

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SHE WENT THERE

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